Friday 30 April 2021

And then there were 3


And we are back!

And we will be expecting baby hun vet 3. Cannot wait to take you on this crazy adventure with me. 

Sunday 17 January 2021

Lock down 3.0

 I can honestly say hand on heart I never for one moment believed I would be living through a pandemic. 

Telling my children everything will be alright all whilst holding my tears back. I can do neatly say Iv cried more in front of my children in the last few weeks than Iv wanted too. But much like everyone else my own emotions are a little hard to keep in check right now. 

I remember when I was little around 6-8 I was desperate to be a a teacher. I loved my middle school teachers, they were kind and so wonderful, I cried when I had to leave year 6, I was devastated I wouldn’t have Mrs Bohoon. God I’m so glad I didn’t become a teacher i have since realised I am fucking shit at teaching. 

My mental health can go from perfectly stable to seriously manic in just seconds at the moment and I don’t know what mood I will be in when I wake up. 

My kitchen is lined with dirty laundry and dishes, my lounge floor hidden under oodles of toys. I’m knee deep in print offs of school work I have no idea how to do. 

Iv never felt so confused or overwhelmed in my life, I feel like I’m loosing the plot slightly and anything even the smallest thing can make me cry. 

I see all these mums smashing it and loving being in lock down and I honestly wonder why I don’t feel like that. Why can’t I find it as calming and enjoyable as they do. 

Mums I see you, I hear you and I want you to know that your amazing.